As people try to find strength in their life they go through very lows where the world just comes to an all time deep sadness and going absolutely nowhere. It just seems like everything you do doesn’t seem to be going in the right direction. You may have or not have someone there but you still feel an emptiness that aches for something you can’t really see, feel, touch, taste or understand. You know at the moment that everything just isn’t right. You feel your inner power saying change now you dummy! But you lay there like a lug thinking your quarter of a spiritual belief may step in any time now. By powers above, God steps in and gives you a wake up call and a near-life experience to get you going and guiding you.
In my case, that was breast cancer in 2004 when I needed this blessing from up above. I was twenty nine years old wandering the world like a headless chicken just running around adding little to the growth of the world or even moping around doing nothing. I decided to put my head back on and go spread my wings opening doors to spiritual love and going beyond this material and physical world. Desperately trying to please the world I decided to live my own life. This was mostly out of the exhaustion of trying to please my boyfriend. Lose weight & go exercise, go get a job, get some friends, quit sleeping so much, I pay all the bills, you need to help with the bills, you need to do this, you need to do that, . When you hear this ALL the time it exhausts you to the point of getting stressed out to the max.
This is where I was in my life. I was lost. Completely lost. I didn’t honor the ten commandments, I didn’t seek out God in my loneliness and found no hope in anything spiritual. That’s how many feel. You don’t know how you did get out of your deep cave of madness but somehow you’re this new spiritual magnet bringing even more to your light because you can spread the word of God by this inner spiritual belief with empowerment. There comes this expansion to those trying to find calmness and reality. Humankind stories shouldn’t have to be rocket science trying to be out of the world philosophy but inner strength to guide you or even help you in a very small way.
