LONELINESS February 18, 2007

Why do we expand ourselves to very little? We can shrink down to the size of a bean and feel as if we’re completely and totally alone. We succumb to pressures so we can fit into someone else’s heart. We’ll float along well but our sail goes to the ocean to the deep waves for awhile but somehow we’ll make it back to the calm waters. To live, we attach to our loved ones because they keep us at the calm waters. We strengthen our heart with love and attachment with another. Not with any items. Items don’t last eternally like the soul. To deny being lonely- first love yourself first and foremost.

LOONY FOR LOVE December 10, 2006 9:54 a.m.

We drive ourselves crazy when we’re in love, looking for love, lost your love, can’t remember love or confused about all of them mixed together. In my case I get mad at my true love a lot but miss him so when he’s not beside my heart I just have to have his kisses, smiles, stories and presence alone to ease my soul from my insanity. That’s true love. I hope everyone finds love that’s close their own perfection and resembles eternity in their heart. We’re invisible to others who are truly in live because they’ve found each other and don’t need others silliness and games. They know the will and strength of their relationship can/will surpass temptations of the opposite sex. My first and true love will always be David Allen Latshaw. He’s my heart and soul of now and forever. The very first time I ever seen him I thought he was so good looking and still do think he’s the best looking man ever. I’m a jealous person so I get angry when women flirt with him and stuff. Drives me insane because he’s MINE! Don’t forget it bitches! Love Jenna

RELATIONSHIPS AND CLOSING DOORS TO OPPORTUNITIES April 19, 2006

We diminish ourselves when we close doors to the opportunity to love or even be loved. We take a chance in every relationship throughout our entire life. Compatibility is structured so that you’re absolutely sure from meeting many other people that this new encounter is an attachment meant to be. You categorically analyze in your head the benefits and possible futuristic events you anticipate with this new person. Generating an ounce of guts to be with a new found relationship requires bravery and trust. An attempt to make contact with this newfound spirit still tells you inside that there’s a potential of long term togetherness. An empty soul can only be filled with the pouring of other souls in yours. There are so many different types of relationships that there’s an overabundant amount of people out there that the numbers are truly endless. Neighbors, relatives, co-workers, spouses, friendships and so forth. The options are endless. Loneliness shall never be an option because there are limitless amounts of people like you and I seeking any type of human stimulation. Encounters of every kind are stimulated through generating guts to even go and talk with one another. Like minds is the essential factor in healthy communication. Clues to your inner self is found in the others you choose to be around. A mold of yourself is a gradual encounter among you and everyone you meet. Therefore, be yourself and seek others as if you’re equipped to be a magnetic human with divulging welcome ness. Open the doors to countless relationships and fill your soul with boundless opportunities. No one but you can create the fantasy of happiness and joy in the family reunions, runs to favorite stores, chats with old friends, neighbors we meet or co-workers we’re drawn to. We need each other and survive off each other.

EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTERS March 7, 2006 Tuesday

We all go through emotional roller coasters when it comes to every relationship. Our biggest battle is ourselves. We are our own struggle because we put our shields of armor when its something out of boundary. Defying my own ethics of my relationship 101 standards is a no no. Essentially, we/you want to be level with meals, family, choosing TV programs, doing stuff together and sharing stuff. When you’re younger you’re more jealous thinking your mate will leave you or fool around. As you get older and you grow insanely and ridiculously together as one- you laugh at the thought.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WOMEN LOOK FOR IN A MATE? October 16, 2005

Since everyone’s different there’s so much out there to choose from. Basically, women want a guy who is nice, caring, have a job, smells good, takes care of themselves, has a place of their own, sense of humor, a certain way they want them to dress, similar interest, a manly man, confidence, no relationship with ex’s, sometimes no kids, religious preference, smoking or no smoking preference, height preference, income preference, good looking, smart, good in bed, kissable, huggable, like music, energetic guy, want children down the road, have cooking abilities, be nice and no drinker or drug person. Most of all, women want to be loved, feel sexy to their man, be their top priority and an eye to eye level partnership.

WHAT'S GENUINELY ATTRACTIVE TO YOU? May 4, 2005

When looking at either a male or female- I think that a big fat sex smile is genuinely attractive. I think many people out there who have no smile but a nasty smirk, grin, angry face, snobby turn or anything shitty is going to be ugly. Cockiness is unattractive too! When someone thinks they’re all that then it only disgusts you. Yeah they could be good looking but once that bubble over explodes then its just gross and all downhill from there. Confidence is very attractive. When a person is confident it screams attractiveness and yells come get more of me. When one is confident they don’t yell for attention- they just automatically just get it. This is very true. When they’re confident, they’re charismatic, funny, smile a lot, lighten a room and blast with attractiveness. What’s attractive in a mans voice is one that carries and is pretty loud and can be very demanding. Soft voices are weak and unattractive. When its too light you want to pull their teeth out and tell them to be a man. What’s attractive about a woman’s voice is light and whispery. If she sounds like she smokes five packs of cigarettes a day, heavy man voice or crackly then that’s unattractive. When a woman’s voice is cheery, light and carefree then that exuberates confidence. What makes both the man and women attractive is their looks. Everyone has their own taste of what they prefer in their spouse. Often it’s the looks you see first, if you have a taste for a certain package then that’s what you’ll look for.
Now, let me tell you about my attractive male list I made a very long time ago. I actually prayed to God at what I prefer in my perfect mate. I wanted him to have no kids, have no ex that was going to ever be around, have a good job, a nice place to live, make good money, be good looking, be genuinely nice, have a sense of humor, wear jeans tees mostly and have own car. Now this was asking a lot but my prayers were actually answered when I met David Latshaw. He actually fit my list from A-Z. I mean he was a perfect match. I thought he was great looking the moment I seen him and I knew I was really attracted to him. He was the perfect height to kiss to. I loved that part. We had great physical chemistry which was excellent.
What I find attractive is very opposite to many women out there. We all have different tastes, desires and wants. Many find a soul mate and many wander aimlessly always hoping the next person is Mr./Mrs. right. To me attractiveness is good looks, sense of humor, sexy smile, confidence, carrying yourself with care, being naturally bossy, caring for others/yourself, laughter, good spirit, warm heart, kindness and warmth. All of this is David and I combined. Together we exuberate an attractive couple. Plus, we’re happy together and care for each other deeply. I love him with all my heart and I’m blessed that he’s in my life. Not a day goes by where I don’t appreciate babe. He’s everything attractive and much much more!
What do you find attractive all depends in your own experiences, tastes, recollections of past relationships, levels of commitments and where you are in life right now. Do you want a physical or life long relationship? Both depends on how attractive they are! If they’re so so then a few things if great then marriage.

OPPONENTS, SURVIVAL, RELATIONSHIPS & HOW TE EMBELLISH YOURSELF March 27, 2005

Our greatest opponent in our lives is ourselves. Our own demise is based on our upbringing, our environment, what we learned, who we are attracted to. It is the social atmosphere and the absorption of them combined together. Every single one of us has a unique story of that mixture creating togetherness, conflict, differences or creative elements. All of this is what makes us, shakes us, takes us and continually growing and learning. Without it, we’d be boring earthlings. You and I are a part of this mixture where we continually challenge ourselves trying to live up to whatever our “plan” may be.
Day by day we ask if we’re on the right path of growing. Is survival itself our “plan?” Who knows? That’s why everyday should be a new learning experience, a new battlefield, a new challenge, a new excitement or any type of new development.
What matters if you yourself knows that doing today stuff will chain react to my future growth and well- being. You ask yourself how cleaning house all day can be a fulfilled day? Well, its all in the interpretation of what you hoped to get out of it. For example, you hope more guests come over so you can brighten yourself up, you like the feeling of freshness all around, you hope to keep the pattern routine and not let things “slide” over and over, you pride yourself as being well cleaned, your hobby requires it or no one else will do it so you have no say in the matter. Whatever it may be, they all lead to future chain reactions.
One key factor to all of this is happiness. When you do aim towards your daily routine schedules, do you subconsciously say to yourself- lets just get this day over with and that’s it? Most likely not. Hopefully, when you desire certain spontaneity, you also reach for happiness. Everything you do won’t make any difference in the world if you’re unhappy. I myself have tried to ask what makes one happy. I believe a positive attitude towards everything, positive outlook towards others, an exercise regime, a central interest, hanging around other positive people, a religious belief, a career path you enjoy( be it may be home mom, lawyer, etc.), a regular steady income and a strong family unit.
Oh I forgot confidence. Believe it or not this is very key to fulfilled happiness. Once you’re sincerely confident, others notice practically wanting to magnetize themselves towards you. Others will confide in you more, want to be around you more, seek your opinion more, take you out more and simply just want to be around you more. There’s no need to be rude, obnoxious, loud, cruel or crude. These are just displays of weakness and insecurity. Be yourself and always look in the mirror telling yourself you’re the most beautiful person and that anyone would be delighted to know the real confident you. Always re-creating yourself could be edgy and fresh.
Go ahead-- embellish your tales of wisdom and past events, make yourself as “THE HOLLYWOOD” it and go with it. Everything’s in your own ball park, just go and flow with it. Always remember to be happy while doing so. Remember to that your family is always there for you. Don’t ever hold a grudge against any of your family. Always or give and never let any argument go on. Plus the feeling is jus awkward and uncomfortable. Act as if nothing really happened and they probably will to. Its nice to have all your family there for different reasons. Use them as resources and tools. They probably do use to for different reasons. Like Jerry would like to go with you somewhere or Jamie or Beck. Just remember we’re all important to each other. Okay, I love you very much. I hope always and forever you are genuinely happy, healthy and loved. Be true to yourself above all others. Love always and forever, Jenna Lyn