FAMILY FIGHTING May 16, 2007 Wednesday 01:33 p.m.

I think yesterday was a full moon because it seemed real odd and tense. I just remembered waking up to Joe and Nikolai yelling. I believe (not 100% sure) Joe was yelling at Nikolai to go spend time with her kids. Then Joe comes back in seeing her on the cell phone outside and then starts up with Braden. Braden yelled at Joe saying don’t yell at Nikolai because Nikolais trying (which she’s been trying for 8-9 years now since she was 14-15 years old). So Joe was like she’s only around for two days (if that) out of the month. Joe says stuff we never even dare to say. Then Nik and Braden go with Jr and Arlene to play by the tree. Next thing they’re in the front and leaving with Duval to take the stolen copper to get some money (by the way it was stolen from Bradens work) which I believe is terrible in itself. I mean it is stealing for crying out loud. Then mom and I were feeling bad they were yelling at Joe because he spoke the truth. Joe went to the back yard and we were wondering where he was for a moment. I made my pop tart and went to go see Braden and them. They were getting ready to go and Braden took one of my delicious chocolate pop tarts and drove off saying Jr didn’t eat. He was glaring at Dawn because in his mind Joe and Dawn were calling (him/him & her) bad parents. They’re overly sensitive I think and ridiculously wanting to fight back. I mean that’s their automatic response is to be defensively abrupt with yelling and fighting words. Oh so I call to offer mom and I to come and pick his van up. Mom wanted to finish her movie so we waited a little. Then we left and next thing we get there. Well Dawn stayed home because Joe was with his friends driving around. Now that I know he was drinking and selling Bradens copper without his permission. In the night, oh yeah mom and Dawn came with me to Goldendale and mom had an inkling to stay because Joe was drinking and mom said- told Joe to stay out of trouble. David shows us the property and we get a call while waiting in the truck from Beck saying Joe/Braden/Nikoalai were fighting. Dawns in the front seat talking loud going- should I call the Wapato Police? Mom and I were in the back seat of the truck saying…sshh all embarrassed. We couldn’t’ do anything what happened is Joe took (stole-depends on ones view) copper and Braden was mad. Joe was drinking and yelling at Nikolai Joe went towards Nikolai physically and Braden protected her. Braden beat Joe up. Joe goes to jail. Gets out next day. Nikolai goes to jail and gets sentenced. She gets out June 9th. Its rather insane. Well it was insane that day. We stopped to get $5 more bucks at the casino and left. Mom and Dawn went in and mom wanted more tickets to win the RV. The feud between Joe and Nikolai is very heated. Braden milks into Nikolais deceit and lies against Joe causing us to fight and try to bring us apart as a family. She’s a compulsive liar with many versions of her stories. Who knows? May God give her an awakening to be loving, honest, alcohol free, drug free, keep away from bad influences and seriously get treatment or else the cycle of her madness will continue. Oh I think on that day too mom and Dawn fought about mom tickling Dawn and Dawn got really upset. That was pretty weird too. Oh what a day!!

SPREADING LOVE May 16, 2007 Wednesday 04:08 a.m.

I gave out all the love possible and sometimes got resentment, judgment and misunderstanding. This gift let me pray for them and only reach out to them to shower them with love flooding their veins beautifully. I know pain in their loneliness, selfishness, lost ness, anger, resentment or unknown identity can be confusing with the real truth. Truth that love fulfilled in the heart takes away all the pain off the world because the genuine feeling uplifts your heart soul and mind. Love yourself first and foremost telling the mirror. I love you! Then spreading the love is natural and very beautiful and wholesome.

WHY READ THE BIBLE? April 27, 2007 10:50 a.m.

When you really read the words of the Bible and understand it, your concept of life becomes clearer. Why you’re here, why you do the things you do and hardships you face are happenings to learn and grow from. I wonder if other people get the “I get it” moment? I had it about 3-5 hours reading through the bible online. It makes sense of why everything happened and why we must love God and appreciate how the gift of Jesus and Mary are bigger gifts than any ring, linen, perfume or any other material possession you ever received. Discipline is a must when sacrificing everything for God. Its only through the devils temptations or work comes chaos, war, famine, suffering, pain, etc.
Its through eternal love and knowledge of God do we reach the heavenly kingdom. Your goal in life, or in your long life destiny is to be a holy example and even a missionary. Do you embrace your pain and suffering with love and forgiveness always in your heart? No need to be skeptical because he (God) is the divine father who gives us life and saves us to be beautiful and to always love.

ME IN THE MIRROR April 23, 2007 Monday

I look at old pictures of me and see a beautiful person who I want to cheer up and slap her pain away. Tell her she’s smart and don’t let anyone else tell her any different. Tell her to never date and give herself to God and become a nun. Tell her to go to church all the time and pray everyday. Tell her to give up all material possessions and realize that love comes naturally. Just tell her that the meaning of life lies within church and not in malls, magazines, music or looks. Shelter your love in God, watch and listen to him.

ARE YOU READY? April 22, 2007 Sunday 11:29a.m. Earth Day

Are you ready? Behind your skepticism are numerous versions of both truths and lies. You lead up to your own conclusion through your own experiences and teachings. Beliefs are spiritual happenings of goodness and love. We of course suffer in pain as well but a divine strength tells us in our heart and soul everything is/will be okay with our love of God. Not only our love but our genuine belief and devotion to spread his strength and vision. I ask you now, as a Catholic who has had a vision of Jesus himself, are you ready for him to love you and you love him? Ready to get rid of the skepticism and be a true believer in God, Jesus and Virgin Mary.