I MISS MY BREASTS November 09, 2006 Thursday 1:58 a.m.

I know I removed both my breast for the sake of my life but there are days when looking in the mirror can be painful. The deformity is unsightly to see on some days. The feel of my nipples gone is weird too. I just miss the appearance side of my breasts gone mostly. I absolutely love not wearing a bra. Wearing no bra is so nice. Plus, its literally a pain off my shoulders. The weight of two bowling balls was rather ridiculous. I remember the pain of the cancer in the right breast was flaring and sharp. No way could I sleep on that side because the pain was unbearable. Right now, appearance has been lifted off my shoulders. I don’t need to impress anyone. All I need is the continual love of David and my family. The opposite sex disappoints me most of the time because they miss out on a lot in life when their heart is scorching for superficial things and not genuine kindness and love. To them, they’d say that’s what a fat, ugly chick would say. Deep down they’re own image would be destroyed being seen with anything less. Oh back to my breasts. I’m glad to be alive. When I have self pity I forget about my guardian angels working hard after me. I also ignore my own loved ones as well who enjoy my company and doing stuff with me. Plus, I’m not doing Gods work which is to teach, love, spread love, endure love, spread the word of God and remember I sacrificed my breasts for God.