YARD SALES, TREATING YOURSELF AND GETTING TEST RESULTS June 20, 2005 (Monday Evening)

I went to my mammogram this last Friday and decided to stay at moms. I went to a couple yard sales and had a blast. I got me a bunch of white tee shirts. I was just thinking I need some new t-shirts because mine all suck. I was going to get some shorts but they didn’t’ have any really. Joe cleaned Braden and Duvals yard over there and got really tanned. Me and mom got him a 44 oz soda at the store. It was bloody ass hot today. Got up to 80-85 degrees. I sleep on the couch and its not too bad really. The dogs make me feel pretty protected and I like it a lot better that Marks no longer around. Overall, its not too bad really. I’ve been keeping the fan on because it gets too damn warm. My appointment about my results is tomorrow- I have to admit I’m rather scared to see the results. Who knows what’s going to happen next. I forgot about the tribal cancer walk I think. Oh well- it was going on the same time as Braden jr s birth. Oh yeah- I’m an aunt now. Born on June 18, 2005 at 12: 30 p.m. in the afternoon pm Saturday- a day before fathers day. The whole family is superass excited. I drove mom to her doctors appointment today. She had to get a bone scan. We ate in the hospital cafeteria- we had broccoli soup and water. I kind of miss babe- I think he’s a 1000 times more positive than me. I think I’m just a negative freak that has a soar attitude about life I swear. it’s the exact reason I got cancer- I’m just so negative and optimistic about life in general. I think psychiatry wouldn’t help me very much. I’m only putting doubt in the doctor helping me in the first place- hence, the negative outlook on life attitude. I know why- I don’t exercise releasing the bad antioxidants out of the body- cleansing it from bad stuff all over. Who the hell knows. Anyways, there was a butt load of people at the hospital today. Oh earlier there was hardly anyone but around 1:00 it got jam packed and full. Its rather scary (dramatic) to think that many were there. You’d like to think its for babies born mostly but realistically there’s everything there. These bodies we borrow for short time are a force to be reckoned with I swear. You’re like your own car really. You have to make sure you keep yourself tuned up all the time. You got to feed yourself, bathe yourself, cut your nails, treat yourself, enjoy yourself, tone yourself by exercising and eating right. With so much writing about diseases you don’t know what to believe really. According to what’s written really- you’ll have to live in a damn bubble to live a healthy full life. Who knows. We do need to take care of what we got- physically, mentally, spiritually and realistically. I feel rather find with everything lately. I mean I’m going to be turning 31 and I’ll have to admit that I’m okay with my life so far. I guess you can say I have accomplished almost everything I’ve ever wanted to. No real complaints really. I don’t’ know what shall be my next real goal/stair to climb. I’m pretty unsure of that department. I should make some realistic goals/things I’d like to do and stuff I’d like that and check them off when I’m doing them. Oh I got to eat some rainier and purple cherries here at moms. So delicious and divine those cherries are. Braden seems so happy to have his kid- its so cool to see him so happy with this kid. Oh yeah I got that black oil stuff on the white Subaru. David’s going to be so pissed. I don’t know what to wash it off with. I have to admit that I did try to avoid it. Great I’m not asleep yet. I should get some sleep. I feel like something’s crawling all over me. Like when I had fleas- it’s a very unpleasant and uncomfortable feeling. I can’t really get some shuteye with this feeling really. Betty, bobby and jack all went to bathroom…I think they had to pee. I think it’s a lot cooler now that mom opened the window. I’m not to drama hot anymore. Way cool.