First of all, I’d like to change my antisocial personality that can distance myself from the world. I often find this disturbing. For the longest time I’ve been super antisocial. Second, I’d like to be more of a leader type. I would have to say under certain situations I’d be able to lead people. Well not really. I don’t have a demanding voice and carry a leader type of personality. I get too nervous, scared people will respond terribly to the demands I want of them and get too caught up in- is this right kind of thing.
Thirdly, I’d like to be more spontaneous in my overall personality. I don’t think I have enough spunk in my conversation. Most of the time I’m pretty dull and monotone when speaking. I just need some extra drive, spontaneity, fullness and refreshing zest in my conversation.
So these three characteristics I truly do wish I could change about myself. A little history about how my personality came to be. I grew up clinging to my mom always staying close by her side. I was a terribly shy person who was always just hiding behind mom in the public.
In school I just pretty much was really shy there too! If it weren’t for my cousins Jessica and Melissa I never would have made it through grade school. They were honestly my icebreakers throughout. Jessie most of all would make sure no one ever picked on me and was like my bodyguard. If anyone thought about picking on me she’d be right there taking care of it for me. So I’ve always been thankful they were there. It sucked when they missed school because I’d have no one to play with.
Now, in junior high they didn’t go to seventh grade. They dropped out after sixth grade. In seventh grade, I met a girl named Laura who came my next great friend. She also spoke up for me and was there when I needed her. She was a red headed fireball that was really happy and smiled a lot. She moved after seventh grade to Idaho. Come eighth grade to senior year in high school, Brandy became my best friend for life. She was my inner strength when I was weak. Just like Jessie, I also missed Laura and Brandy when they missed school. All of them were strong minded, fierce , zippy and all my good friends. I loved them all. Yes I was shy but they added comfort to my uneasiness. Come college I blossomed to somewhat of a social butterfly. Only at Heritage through. At City University, I was back to being a loner. Today, I’m really antisocial and stay away from huge events, crowds or a lot of people just in pairs.
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