NEGATIVE ENERGY AROUND THE HOUSE November 12, 2006 12:03 a.m.

I’ve been gone from home since the day before Halloween. There’s just a certain feeling at my house that’s a little awry. I need to bless the house myself and ask whatever’s there in the house to leave me alone. I went home with bear and got my gas voucher. I didn’t sleep a wink in my own bedroom. I think I should be more positive. I t just really sucks the whole situation where I’m just sill most of the time. Well, I just think I’m feeling sick of going out of the house. I miss David with all my heart. He’s my love, my eternal soul mater and I feel like I’m ignoring him. I’ll go home tomorrow. I miss my family when I leave. It’ll be lonesome and quiet. I won’t even get to say goodbye to baby. I went to my appointment on Friday and afterwards Jamie, Anne, baby, Joe, mom and I had Pizza Hut next door, baby sure is cute. He throws food a lot. He makes the whole family laugh a lot. He’s so adorably cute. He gave his aunt Jenna some morning kisses and it was so cute. At Dawns appointment I drove there and back. It was tiresome. We spent the night in a smoking room but it was okay. Not super duper terrible. We were all tired and went to sleep okay. Well except baby who was sick. He was crying and miserable. Mom argued saying the room cost too much.