WHY DO YOU LIKE ORGANIZATION? January 5, 2006 3: 52 a.m.

To me, it clears my mind and makes me think a whole lot better. If I have clutter then I think with stress on my shoulders. If its really filthy then I feel hopeless and disappointed that I’m living a mess. Most of the time I don’t like to have clutter for too long or else I just get down on myself. I don’t have to be neat all the time. I got to have some days where I’ll just leave clothes on the floor, dishes undone and stuff like that. I’m not perfect nor aim for perfection in anyway. Most of the time I like to have it clean so I can think clearer and with more positive thoughts jollying around in my head. Being at moms was real frustrating for me. I so much wanted to clean, get rid of a lot of junk, have others help me clean, dust stuff everywhere and so on. I wanted some kind of action where I could at least have a feeling that is both nice and comfortable. I kind of felt claustrophobic like I was being smothered by too much stuff. I like to have a clean car too or I’ll get frantic every time I got in the car thinking damnit I need to clean the car out or it’ll be at the top of my mind till I do so. I like to have a place for everything as well. Towels go here, rags there, recycle pile here, undies/socks there, books here, shirts there or all the cleaning stuff. If I have a place then I like to make sure it stays that way unless there’s room elsewhere and makes more sense in another area. Same with papers- the filing system I have enforced works well for me. Bills go where they’re supposed to be, cards, quotes, stickers, pictures and so forth. Pretty much I like organization or else I get really flustered and angry that its not the way I want it to be. Plus when I do- I feel good about myself thinking I can take on many different projects throughout the week and so forth. I also feel less tension like its at the back of my mind till I get the organization done. If I need to find anything too- I know right where it is and can easily explain where it is.