TRYING TO BE CONTENT May 3, 2006

Content is the person living as if tomorrow will not come tomorrow. We imagine ourselves in a state of mind that we’re nothing past our deaths. We still exist past our deaths as a form very much human either knowing other loved ones or the same ones we know through this existence today. Spiritually we continue to be an entire soul taking numerous spiritual forms. Much is unknown to man for many reasons because of various factors. Most commonly is the fear of unknown and the mental state of mind being seen as insanity. Generally, we’re given a limited amount of memory and given a certain aspect of reality vs. non-reality. Making up our own minds about wrong vs. right depends on our upbringing too. We’re not all given a “role-model” to guide us in lives. Through terrible leads of suggestion, some tumble in the cracks of society with misguidance from parents, peers, society and media. The biggest influence comes from parents who are the hugest influence in the child’s future behaviors. Although, a parent can only teach and guide so much. There are certain individuals who are, for some strange reason, born bothersome. Bothersome in the context that they have sociopath type personalities, mental depression and so forth kind of problems. No common sense can be dysfunctional to say the least because there are individuals like this. You stand back and think…you’ve got to be kidding me! I myself have my own private prayers/talk with God asking for patience and a sense of relief when dealing with such individuals. Que sera- sera. I broke down one day like a little baby like a few weeks ago when I came across such an individual. You get…well I get angry at someone but then I get angry at myself because I shouldn’t be an ass hole to others because of karma can be a kick in the ass three fold. So it’s a lost cause in most situations given the resource. At the time the temptation to rip heads off can be overwhelming but you realize…nahhh…its just not worth it.